GAAHH

Oke, jadi aku galau. I'm so fucking random lately. I don't know what happens in me, people around me, and everything in between. I have so much fun with some friends, but every time I'm happy I feel so guilty. I feel like I shouldn't do this, especially to some particular people who I lately spend my time with. I feel like I'll hurt him and or her. I think I should build a high wall and distance myself from them, but I hate being alone. I also found something strange (my friend, Martan, told me to observe my surrounding to sharpen my sensitivity). Hey, I found something strange and I'm not sure about it, so how I check whether my assumption, judgement, and feeling are true? Well, maybe I should observe more. Then, if I know what actually happen, I seriously don't know toooooo how to react. *sigh* Hmm.

So, this is me. 

Bye!

Tiap Senja

 Bilakah kau menepi di labuhku? 

Bilakah kau menjauh?

Membentang kau jelas di sana, namun tak teraih. 

Kau tak datang pun tak pergi

Riak-riak berlabuh di pantaiku.

Darahku kian menderu. 

Sadari tak jelas disana, apakah karenamu? 

Kau tak nyata pun tak semu

Tidakkah cinta berkuasa?

Tak mestinya luka menghentikan langkah

Bila saatnya, hadapilah 

Tidakkah bimbang menyiksamu

Masih banyak pulau yang dapat kau temu

Sejenak saja, hampiriku! 

Berharap 'kan jelas disana, hanyalah karenamu

Tiap senja di labuhku

Menepilah!

Float

Rahasia

Tentang masa depan yang tak pernah bisa kutembus bayangnya,

 tentang hati yang selalu tak mudah kubaca,

tentang segala tanya yang tak kutahu jawabnya,

dan tentang hal-hal abstrak lainnya, seperti misalnya manusia, 

yang aku minta,

pasti ada makna lain lebih dari sekadar rahasia.

Rindu

Saat perjalanan balik, semesta seakan mengerti. Ada rindu yang belum sepenuhnya tersampaikan. Makanya hujan turun.


31/9/13

A Late Bloomer

There is a room inside your heart that only certain people can fill. No matter how crowded your heart is, if no one there, all you feel is empty. 

Twillight

Hi, Kid. I think I'm falling for you, but I decide to the best that I could.. I deny it.

Amnesia

  

  Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart -Murakami
:"(

Hanging Lamp

Hey, Kid. When you think your life is too dark, maybe you forgot to turn on the light.

Rewind

Hey little girl, did you ever think about what will you be in 20 years later? 

what kind of life you have? where are you at that time? what have you been through? are your parents still alive?  are you living your dream? have you found your soul-mate? who is he? I just want to say, whatever you will be later.. you have to be grateful for what you have. Promise?

My Favorites

and food

ps. CAN'T STOP CHEWING.

TALKING ABOUT FOOD.. I THINK.. I'M GETTING BIGGER

dan semakin membulat kayak onde-onde. #self-pukpuk