Saturday, 26 October 2013

Quick Update

JUST GOT NEW SURPRISE (AGAIN) FROM KUYUNG AND RIDEUNG. AAAAAKK A SUPER CUTE SCRAPBOOK <3 WITH MANY LETTERS FROM MANY PEOPLE AND WISHES AND LOVE. I LOVE YOU MUAH. SORRY FOR BEING SO JUTEK AND MEAN LATELY. HIHIHI HAPPY! THANK YOU!!!!


ps. katanya gak suka birthday, eleuh dasar! 
pss. ((lagi nunggu dua orang yang sampe jam 8 ini belom ngucapin huhuhu))
psss. tetep ye ditunggu, katanya ga suka ulang taun! 
pssss. eh tapi kan.. tapi kan

Happy October

Just woke up and received a call from mom and dad. Happy! And got new present in front of my door, thank you kosanmate! Well, I'm not a kid and still get birthday present, I think I should be more than just happy. Also messages from everyone. Ohkay, not everyone. Relatives, friends, best friends. I feel blessed. What makes me happy today is also I can wake up in early morning! What a happy day! Thank you for the wishes and the prays! <3 Happy October!

Birthday Girl

I hate birthday. First, I'm getting older. I hate getting older. Second, I have a mid-exam on this day. Should be submitted this day. 5-6 pages of review on curriculum. What the.... 

And third, I hate why my birthday must be at 26th of October. I found so many people have birthday at this day. I know five of them. One, my best friend,  Zulfi. Well, we share the same birthday since elementary school. I hate my birthday since back then. Two, my lecturer, Pak Iwan. Okay, he's awesome. But.. well, forget it. Three, my friend in math department. God! Why! Four, my kakak kelas. Fifth, my adek kelas. Six,.. wait? Sixth? Yes, my friend's private student. Seven, oh well, I read my timeline and it's not only me. Three selebtwits born today. Oh, I HATE BIRTHDAY :'(

But anyway, thank you for the presents and the presence, my dear friends. What a sweet, silly, and silent celebration. God I can't even scream because it might make all the neighbor wake up. ITU KADONYA NGEJAWAB DOA BANGET SIH :') TRIMSS YE! :')

What I always love at my birthday present is usually not the present, but the letter instead. Not to mention that I don't like the present, but I just like people write something about me. I like their handwriting. I like the sincerity written in the letter. I like how they say something that they never say it directly to me. Their wish, their opinion about me, their everything they wanna say. Something that cross the line, something that hit me, make me happy, make me laugh, make me sad, something I can't never imagine. I like how emotion and feeling involve there. I like reading a letter of someone written for me. I only get a letter in a very rare moment. I'm more than happy if anyone write a letter for me, because I can't find it in my present today.

Thursday, 24 October 2013

To the Person in front of Me

I hate you for being so selfish and not even realize it. You think I'm annoying and I think you're more annoying. I don't know how we can end up as best friends. I don't know how can you complain about our togetherness. You demand many things but you don't want to look at yourself. You cheer yourself and you blame others. I hate you when you're moping and don't even want to talk and avoid me. I hate you when you're so sensitive and you take every joke as sarcasm. I hate when I try to tell you what you shouldn't do because it's disgusting or norak or impolite, and then you get mad. You think I hate you, yes I hate you for being so stubborn. I hate your negative thinking. You don't believe people easily, you say, but you're easy to get deceived. I hate you for not to say sorry when you do mistakes. Well, not kind of sorry-abis-nginjek-sendal-sengaja. I hate when all we do is just misunderstand to each other. Never can communicate what we feel, what we think, and everything. I hate it. 

And I hate it because we're friends.

Wednesday, 23 October 2013

Mama

M : Risma lagi apa?
R : Lagi ngerjain skripsi ma, kenapa?
M : Mama lagi smsan sama Tante Puji, habis minta alamat sekolah Alfiza dan Adam di Qatar. Biar Risma bisa ngirim lamaran di sana.
R:  Qatar ? :O
.... entahlah, ini mama saking sayangnya sama aku kali ya. Udah riweh dari sekarang nyari kerjaan buat anaknya. Ke Qatar pula -_-

Padahal anaknya masih revisi Bab 1,2,3 

:')

Friday, 18 October 2013

To Live Your Life to the Fullest

I remember my friend told me, "In our age now, we should have known what we want to be, like where we are going to be after we graduate, and what kind of job we take" 

I think about it seriously, and I still end up in confusion. I have many things I want to be. Sometimes I want to be a writer, a journalist. I want to work in creative industry. But I also want to continue my study. In my master study, I want to take teaching methodology, but I also want to take about young learner, and applied linguistics also. Ah, and I want to be a teacher too. I don't know which one should I choose. Ah, what a shame!

Then, I remember my other friend asked me, "When will you grow up?! " after having such silly chats about being ourselves. He asked me to go diet for my best and I asked him back, why can't I be fat and be free from people's comments. Then, we talked about people's expectation thingy and we had different perspective about it. Already, bro. I've already grown up. And I'm still growing. Hey, tell me about grow up things. If I don't live my life like common people in our age means I haven't grown up? If I choose not like what other people choose commonly means I'm retarded? If I think differently from common people means I'm stupid?

And I remember my lecture said this afternoon, the most funky and inspiring lecturer I have ever had, "Choose the things you are best at. You'll be shining there"

Again, it's an I-am-too-coward-to-break-the-wall-alone-because-not-many-people-can-understand. Well, I wish I could be brave to be everything that I want --> I want to live my life to the fullest. I want people around me accept me no matter how different I am. And really thanks for those who already support me, be my friends, who think I'm unique, smart, beautiful, cute, and so other good things =D I'm blessed <3

ps.
At this age, you're questioning this. Poor you, Momo.

Monday, 14 October 2013

Walk the Talk

Sometimes,
I don't believe if people say that they will stay
Because when they happen to say they can't, it hurts inside
They break their promise that I really am waiting for

I don't believe if people say they won't do it
Because when they do it instead, it makes me wanna vomit
They are disgusting, so hypocrite

I don't believe of people words
Because they think they understand but actually they don't

Until, they keep the promises
Until, they really do what they say they will do
Until, they are here when they say they will be here

And I learn a lot from them how really walk the talk is important
It's one of the keys of maturity

Friday, 11 October 2013

Rahasia

rahasia photo IMG_20131010_210330.jpg
Tentang masa depan yang tak pernah bisa kutembus bayangnya,
 tentang hati yang selalu tak mudah kubaca,
tentang segala tanya yang tak kutahu jawabnya,
dan tentang hal-hal abstrak lainnya, seperti misalnya manusia, 
yang aku minta,
pasti ada makna lain lebih dari sekadar rahasia.

Wednesday, 9 October 2013

Tuesday, 8 October 2013

Tulisan Acak, Gitu

Suka banget jalan di Kalibata City. KC (begitu nama gaulnya) adalah kawasan apartment yang bawahnya ada foodcourt, supermarket, salon, toko baju, make up, segala rupa ada. Tempat nongkrong paling asoy buat mahasiswa, karena ada wifi.id-nya! :D Suka kesini entah sendirian maupun sama gerombolan geng jilbab ceria. Selain internetan, aku paling suka merhatiin orang-orang yang sliweran. Ada ibu-ibu yang pake cadar juga anak-anaknya bahkan yang masih di kereta bayi, embak-embak yang pake celana pendek udah macem pake celana dalem doang, ada yang pake baju tidur doang, terus ada mas-mas pake sendal swallow yang cewek pake heels tinggi bet. Ada mas-mas bule tapi istrinya pribumi punya. Ada juga dua cowok yang ketawa-ketiwi, entah mereka sepasang gay ato cuma bestfriend aja. Yang pasti, gak akan keki kalo jalan kesini sendirian.

Lalu yang paling terlintas dipikiran adalah saat ngeliat sepasang mas-mas dan embak-embak, juga bapak-bapak dan ibu-ibu sama anak-anaknya, Allah sungguh Maha Ajaib ya memasang-masangkan makhluknya. Hehehe. Ada yang masnya gembul abis terus mbaknya cantik beud, ada juga yang masnya cakep dan mbaknya gembul beud, adaaa.. dan mereka gandengan. Yang bawa anak, aduh anak-anaknya pengen banget diculik! Lucuuuuuuuu. Aku penasaran bagaimana mereka dibuat bertemu lalu saling suka dan akhirnya taraa.. bersama selama-lamanya seakan selamanya itu ada. Ya, yang terlintas dipikiran itu, bagaimana sepasang mas-mas dan mbak-mbak yang sepertinya secara fisik itu beda kasta tapi kok bisa lho kecantol satu sama lain. Allah sungguh Maha Ajaib! 

Mungkin saat mereka benar saling jatuh cinta, akan lebih dari sekedar kok bisa aku cinta sama kamu, lebih dari sekedar apa yang mereka lihat secara kasat mata dari pasangannya, dan aku pengen tahu dibalik lebih-dari itu ada apa aja *kedip-kedip manja*

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Terus pas lagi jalan sendiri disini, aku jadi inget kata-kata Doni kurang lebih kayak gini "Apa enaknya jalan sendirian, kayak orang gila". Emang sih agak aneh bin insecure kalo jalan sendirian, gak ada temen ngobrol, udah macem gak ada pegangan hidup *apabet* Tapi kalo dibawa asik mah asik aja. Jalan sendirian, bisa bebas lihat ini itu, masuk kesini kesitu, kalo nyasar ya nanya. Dan yang paling asik dari jalan sendirian itu bisa melihat sesuatu lebih dalam dari biasanya, bisa lebih "ngeh" akan hal-hal kecil disekitar yang gak bakal kita perhatikan kalo lagi jalan sama temen karena kebanyakan ngobrol. 

Kayak kemaren ke Bandung, aku jalan sendirian mengangkot ria, turun sesuka hati, menyusuri trotoar Bandung, masuk distro segala rupa, numpang pipis doang di Museum Pos dan karena gak tau museumnya sebelah mana jadi aku keluar aja. Ternyata emang kalo hari Senin itu tutup. Lalu pas jalan di Braga mau ke Museum Asia-Afrika yang ternyata tutup juga, aku jadi ngeh kenapa Bandung kerasa homey dari Jakarta. Selain karena gak ada bangunan tinggi, juga tatanan jalan yang meski ruwet banget tapi gak macet-macet amat, dan udara dinginnya.. abang-abang Bandung itu gak pada jahil suit-suitin cewek yang lagi jalan sendirian. Kalo di Jakarta (apalagi sekitar kosan dan jalanan Gatsu yang lagi dibenerin trotoarnya), abang-abangnya nyebelin banget sumpah. 

p.s. kalo lagi di kampus, jalan sendiri emang gak enak abis sih. Harus ada temen di samping. Kalo enggak, berasa hilang separuh jiwa, gitu. Sama sih, Don.

Sunday, 6 October 2013

A Medley for You

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you
Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
Even the stars, shining up bright 
I've noticed when you're close to me
Still it remains a mystery

No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming

Anyone who's seen us 
Knows what's going on between us
It doesn't take a genius

To read between the lines
Because oh because
I've fallen quite hard over you
If I didn't know you, I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you, I'd rather be alone
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
Oh, it doesn't take a genius to know

All of the while, all of the while, it was you

♪ ♫ ♬

Sejenak

Nyuruh anak-anak bertanya tapi dirinya sendiri jarang nanya. Banyak sebenernya pertanyaan, tapi gak tau harus ditanyakan ke siapa. Nanya ke orang, tapi jawabannya gituh, pandangannya gituh. Bikin gemes. Nanya ke diri sendiri, pusing juga jawab sendiri. Terus mbulet ae. Masih harus banyak belajar -_-

Friday, 4 October 2013

Hello October!

Another October comes! Got many lessons to learn, and also many new friends! Get closer with my best friends. We talk about something serious, something we never talk before, not kind of "menye-menye" things. I can speak out my feeling which is hard for me to do it. Thank youuuu! I'm more than just happy! I just feel, I'm kind of more mature, wiser, smarter, and my mind is getting wider too! Hey hey, I'll be 21 this month =D Anyway, it's nice growing older, yeah.

Jadi orang gede itu asik juga ya. Bisa menginspirasi adek-adek! Lalu mereka akan melihat kita keren banget bisa tahu banyak hal. Hahaha. Jadi orang gede itu asik, bisa cari uang sendiri. Gak minta orang tua lagi dan belom harus nunggu sampai kapan tau gak dibeliin-beliin. Jadi orang gede itu udah waktunya nyoret cita-cita karena udah kesampaian. Bisa kemana aja sendiri! Tanpa harus ngerekek minta ijin ke orang tua! :D Lalu, kedudukan dalam keluarga juga naik, jadi berasa setara sama mama papa di beberapa hal. Seperti, dilibatkan dalam mengambil keputusan keluarga. Tahu "urusan dalem". Cara kita berpikir juga udah beda. Berasa keren aja gitu. Lebih elegan. Memang, masalah semakin berat. Terjebak dalam masyarakat yang judgemental. Tapi kan ilmu juga semakin nambah, pikiran semakin terbuka, semakin bijaksana, semakin banyak pengalaman... tenang aja nanti juga beres dengan seiring banyaknya input yang masuk dalam diri. 

Menjadi dewasa itu kata orang ngga bisa ngelakuin apa aja. Iya sih menurut lo aja, aneh juga ada orang gede pake baju tutu terus loncat-loncat sambil bawa balonnya Lala-Teletubies. Mungkin bukan itu kebebasan yang dimaksud. Aku sih juga belom terlalu ngerti. Tapi menurut aku, be unique and you'll be free.

Mmm, habis ini udah waktunya masuk dunia kerja, terus cari suami, terus nikah, punya anak.... and  I can do what I really want my mom to do to me to my kids! I'll be a great mother, I'm sure. One day :)

Ahahaha, revisi aja belom selesai. Udah ah, dah! :D
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